have i ever told you that you make me smile?
high praise, i know, coming from me,
it's high praise indeed because i have a jumbled
up head and you make me smile and i
maybe even found someone who will stay this
time and maybe i even found someone who
will love me as much as i love them (it
slipped out that night you almost gave
up, almost threw in the towel, almost took the
pills you've been saving) and i know
i wouldn't be able to live without you and
i know i may have to and darling, it
scares me it fucking scares me.
just listen to that... my heart is racing like millions of
butterflies are trapped and running around a ferris wheel
screaming let me out let me
out because my head is jumbled up and i need
you near me and your arms around me and my hands in
your hair and darling your new haircut looks
fine and do you really think i would
leave you over something so silly as
botched bangs and shorter hair?
because no matter how much you fluster
me oh god i dont know how i could last two
weeks without you never mind
the rest of my silly teenage life.
three sentences, mixed up metaphors, and so much neediness.
Excellent title. I love this, very stream-of-consciousness and raw and just honest.
Thank you, i was pretty agitated when i wrote this and it really showed XD
And yet the ending fits perfectly. I love the title by the way.